31/05 - Happiness has the color sun

First I thought the subject in a context of negative feelings. Probably because of the example of paranoia, it may have distracted me a bit. I suffer of panic attacks every once in a while so those feelings of paranoia, fear and agony are familiar to me. But they've never changed how I see the world. If anything, those moments have changed how I see myself.

But I've had those moments too - moments when you are so absorbed to the moment you feel connected to the world in a different way than before. In a pure, deep way. For me those moments have always been moments of joy. Those quick instants when you can't feel anything than pure happiness for a while. I then feel like I were part of my environment, not a separate being.

Next I had to think how I would put those moments in a form of a picture. I'm more a photographer than any other kind of an artist, so I chose photos as my way. Colours are very important to me. I see the world first in colours and after that come sounds, shapes etc. Colours are the first thing I pay attention to, and the last thing I remember. I remember colours better than happenings or people. When I think some kind of emotion, I often see it as a colour.

So I chose these two photographs that show my colours of happiness. I can't explain why, but the colours of sunset are the ones I connect to the moments of joy. These pictures are taken in a different location and different time, but there's something similar in the atmosphere of them. At least to me. When I look at these pictures I remember those passing moments I were so happy it almost hurt.

For me it's in the pink, orange, yellow and lilac.